Thoughts From The Black Notebook




I have this black notebook I got at the beginning of the year from Mr. Abidoye {Father}. I carry this notebook with me all the time, in it I write my ideas, opinions and many of the post on this blog start from this notebook.



The pages of this notebook are almost completely filled with my notes, my poor attempt at drawing and with 2016 coming to an end; I have decided to share a few of the unfinished paragraphs.



On My First Accounting Class - 23rd January 2016



I remember my first Principles of Accounting class, I felt lost and I was looking around to find another lost soul. The faces around me looked so confident as they finished the lecturer’s sentences on the Characteristics of Accounting. I shouldn't have spent the last three years in Science class studying subjects that didn't give me the super power of knowing the lecturer’s notes. I am going to fail this course I thought.



On Baking Journal - 4th February 2016



  • Daily Inspiration
  • Bake with me Wednesday
  • Sharing your Baking Stories



On To-Do-Lists - 19th February 2016


*Last week of February
  1. Write the letter for Grandpa
  2. Write three posts for the month of March
  3. Pray & Read my bible
  4. Work on Vision Board/ Prayer Board
  5. Dance Randomly



On Lessons My Father Didn't Teach Me - 1st March 2016


My father neglected to tell me a long list of things before giving me my first car and those things have proven to be important life lessons.



On Feeling Out of Control - 8th March 2016


On days of deep worry I look to the skies and envy the birds; they get to fly against the wind while I keep moving in whatever direction the wind choose to take me.



On Relationships - 22nd May 2016


  • Take responsibility for your actions
  • Remember to do your part  
  • Accept your fault, work on them and keep growing
  • Apportion blame but never think you are a saint
  • Forgive, let go.
  • Remember to love and the little things



On My Relationship with Mama - 23rd May 2016


We fight and sometimes don't speak, but we never hide our feelings even in silence. There is a certainty to our love from which we draw strength.




On the reply ''OKAY'' - 24th May 2016


What does Okay! really mean. I say it one too many times to get out of questions, sometimes I say it and I mean it and sometimes I say it and I want you to ask ''are you sure?'' and push until I give an honest answer.


On being Different - 4th June 2016


Who exactly set the standard for ‘’normal’’? If I do not to fit into your definition of normal, expand your thinking or move from my space.


On Singleness - 11th June 2016


What is the purpose of Singleness? I think it is to discover who you are, love and understand yourself. Learn to celebrate your individuality



On God's Grace - 12th June 2016


I never thought I was worthy of your Grace but you shower me with it always.


On Getting Robbed - 24th September 2016


I hate raining days in Lagos, they come with dark clouds, thunder, power outage and flooded streets. The dark clouds hide the sun and give comfort to the children of the night.



On Rest - 16th October 2016


Come into my place of rest,
Let go of the burdens you hold so tightly
And come into my rest



On Love - 11th November 2016
There is a certain concept I don't understand; as I age it becomes even more unclear and I have started to doubt its existence.




On Pop Corn Goddess - 28th November 2016


With you I can simply say all that is on my mind
Without fear of judgement or receiving a lecture
You are my soul sister.



On Unrequited Love - 10th December 2016


Be careful with your heart, don’t give it away carelessly. Guard it, above all don’t let it flutter before it’s time.



On Friendship  - 10th December 2016


Remember always to be grateful for the people in your life, because they are always around to cheer you on.




On Fellowship - 12th December 2016


We were not built to live alone, so find your niche, find your family, your place of worship. In fellowship we learn lessons and we draw strength.



On Love - 16th December 2016


I believe my fear of getting hurt is clouding the joy that awaits in love. It is time to deal with my fears and walk in love.


On The Dark Place - 20th December 2016

In the end it is your choice to keep the darkness at bay.
It is your choice to not walk into the darkness when it is the most comfortable option
It is your choice to wake up in the morning and choose joy regardless
It is your choice to live in light